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Giving up…

Is anyone else a fan of random google searches? I sure am. I type something that’s been running through my mind and I see what pops up {older blog similar idea}. A while ago it was giving up. To my surprise, the first result was a simple little video to Ingrid Michaelson’s “giving up.”  I’ve loved loved loved Ms. Michaelson since before it was the cool thing to do. Just ask my poor boyfriend who sat through multiple listenings and analyses of every song I could find of hers. I was thrilled {to say the least} when she was the first result.

Upon your first listen, because the song is so slow and repetitive, it sounds desolate like she’s giving up on everything {the original video I found was great but unfortunately embedding is disabled. Here’s the same song different video}:

Did you get that she isn’t giving up?! She’s not giving up at all. She’s found she will be  happy in all that is imperfect. I think what she’s saying is she’s giving up her insecurities. I think she’s giving up the what-ifs and life’s imperfections and she’s loving what she has, which of course is “you.”

What if we stop having a ball?
What if the paint chips from the wall?
What if there’s always cups in the sink?
What if I’m not what you think I am?

{What if everything isn’t perfect. What if we don’t work out}

What if I fall further than you?
What if you dream of somebody new?
What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?
Well what if I do?

{What if I love you more that you love me. What if I go bat shit crazy?}

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up

{Well I’m giving up on losing out. I’m giving up on other guys. I’m giving up negativity. I’m giving up on what-ifs and insecurities}

What if our baby comes home after nine?
What it your eyes close before mine?
What if you lose yourself sometimes? Then I’ll be the one to find you
Safe in my heart

{What if we ruin our children. What if I’m left all alone. What if we aren’t perfect. That’s okay because I’ll love you all the same}

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up

I am giving up
I am giving up
I am giving up on greener grasses

I am giving up for you
I am giving up for you
I am giving up

{I’m giving up the negativity, the what-ifs and the insecurities because I believe in you. I’m giving up the search for greener grasses because there’s no one greener than you}

Well, there you have it. Ingrid isn’t giving up at all. She’s committing herself to the person the song is written about. My interpretation to another Ingrid song. Maybe you don’t agree you. You don’t need to. I get this chick though and I’m sticking by my interpretation because it made me feel all better. Bam!

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Day seventeen & eighteen

Someone you see yourself marrying in the future
What kind of person attracts you?

This blog challenge was a bad idea. I haven’t really stuck with it on a daily basis, but I figure as long as I do the prompts sometime I haven’t failed completely.

Before college I could never see myself getting married. I could not even imagine it. I was obsessively opposed to being typical and conventional. My parents have been divorced since before I can remember and I didn’t want to deal with that. I had it in my mind that people only hurt other people.

Once I got to college, I began to day dream. I developed my own morals and values and am confident that I have good judgement to pick the right man {if that man will choose me, we will have too see}. I adore being very close to someone and I like the idea of marriage now.

Simple enough, I need someone interesting who will keep me entertained year after year because well I will only get married once {fingers crossed}.They need to have similar morals and values– I have my philosophies and I’m sort of a stubborn chick. He needs to be trustworthy, loyal, honest, faithful and devoted. I’m very easy-going though so he must be too. I require a great deal of support, encouragement and reinforcement. I want my husband to be a source of strength. With one life to live we will make it amazing and we will do it together.

I think I need a dreamer, someone who enjoys adventures and exploring as much as I do. A man who lives in the now but never stops dreaming of the future is important. How about a man who continues to grow intellectually, teaches me new things and searches for truth?

I like story-tellers. I love to listen. Yet, of course, I need someone willing to listen too. So a man with a strong set of communication skills would be wonderful {men communicating–what am I thinking!?}. I need a straight talker. Tell me how it is–when I’m bat shit crazy I don’t need someone to cower and tip toe around me and when I’m right he needs to back me up {I’m never crazy and I’m always right so that wont be an issue, of course}.

And finally,  I’d like a man who can say I love you, know what it means and show it. Actions certainly speak louder than words. My husband must be his own person. I want to be a team of two incredibly awesome people. I want to be and incredibly awesome couple. I want to be envied {& I will be watch!}.

I  want to spend my life with my best friend.

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Day fourteen-Love

What is love?

Love: an intense feeling of deep affection.

Love is when you put another person before yourself. Giving the person you love first choice, picking something over another because you know they will like it. Love is giving the better half to another. You want more than just the person, you want what’s best for that person, you want their well-being. You’re in love when their happiness determines your own. When you love someone they bring delight into the simplest things. Every simple chore, every daily task is more fun when the person you love is by your side. The little things matter the most when you’re in love. When you are in love, you look forward to telling them what happened today. Love is when you can have fun just doing nothing–just talking. Love is going out to eat and not feeling the pressure to entertain or talk every second. You don’t feel ashamed of who you are, you never feel alone and you certainly never feel worthless when you’re in love.

Love is cuddling. Love is fighting but forgiving. Love is when you feel complete just being still. Love is waking up with last night’s make-up melted down your face and hearing “Good morning, Beautiful.” Love is laughing until it hurts. When you are in love you appreciate the present and you look forward to your future. Love is confident. Love just knows.

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Writing: One

She is driving down the side streets of her neighborhood waving to the neighbors she’s had over for dinner and the children she watched grow up into young adults. She turns down the avenue, and waits as a car backs up into a tight spot between some beat up Nissan and an Infiniti. “Gosh, I’m glad I don’t have to deal with that anymore,” she thinks to herself. Her house, the one on the corner. It’s bigger and more beautiful than the one she always imagined when she was young. She smiles gratefully as she makes a wide turn into her two car drive way and pulls forward into the garage.

While she takes the keys out of the ignition, her hand reaches into the back seat and feels around for her purse. As she grabs its strap and pulls it into the front seat, her cellphone falls out of the front pocket and down between her seat and the center console. Without missing a beat the phone begins to ring. She’s expecting to hear from a client and her adrenaline amps up just a bit. Her hand fits between the seats without any trouble, but her forearm is just a bit too short to reach the phone. She wiggles her fingers and wedges her arm down as far as she can. Once she feels the phone, she pushes it out from between her chair and into the back seat. It’s still ringing and vibrating. She fumbles the phone a bit as she answers the call.

“Hello!” She’s been waiting to hear from this client for two hours with the details from the latest campaign efforts. To her avail, she learns efforts so far have produced remarkable results. As the CCO, it is now up to her to decide if the corporation should expand its communications strategy. She wraps up the call by thanking the client for their cooperation and asks if a few personal questions about their family’s latest vacation to the Dominican Republic. “I’m so glad to hear it! Thanks again, Derek. Have a great weekend. Bye.”

She breathes a deep sigh of relief. A great way to wrap up the work week. She relocates her purse and checks the back seat to make sure nothing else fell out. She climbs out of the SUV and closes the garage door behind her. She’s greeted by the most excited wagging tails. Chump, the Rottweiler, moves his entire ass as he dances around the kitchen. Lillie, the 7 pound pap, howls with delight.

She goes through her routine as she usually does when she gets home even though it’s only 3p.m. The dogs are let out into the back yard and fed. The chinchillas are acknowledged and scratched really well. She puts a few dishes that sit in the sink into the dishwasher and goes upstairs to change her clothes. She undresses down to her underwear and hops herself  up and on to the king size piece of heaven in the middle of the room. Unable to help herself, she wiggles her way up to the mound of pillows at the head of the bed.

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Cranky days happen

Note to self: When you are feeling kinda cranky, maybe a little lonely, bored, forgotten, depressed and grumpy, just remember that the funny looking animals in the next room always love you, and they will always make you smile.

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Day seven–15 facts

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  1. I find it difficult to write about myself
  2. I am a champion napper. Super serious, straight up champion.
  3. I’m a pretty good cook. I’m still learning, but I enjoy whipping up a creative meal.
  4. I love deeply. Genuinely. Sincerely.
  5. I don’t believe in religion. I like to learn about them all…but I can’t say I believe in any of them. The one true thing I believe in is love.
  6. I always wear my seat belt.
  7. I’m an excellent listener. Listening leads to understanding. People watching is a passion. I love to learn other perspectives.
  8. I have double chins. Two beautiful baby boy chinchillas.
  9. I’m also a super duper cuddler. Just ask my dog, the boy & my roommates.
  10. I go by many names. Rarely do people actually call me Sarah.
  11. I adore writing, but I couldn’t imagine myself doing only that for a living.
  12. I would really like to travel non-tourist destinations. Anthony Bourdain show me the way!
  13. My goals have changed drastically in the past three years. I want a house near the city with a backyard & a drive way.
  14. The only wine I drink comes out of a box or costs $4.99 a bottle. I’m classy like that.
  15. When I trust you, when I think you accept me, when I think we are close–I will call you names and joke around with you and show you the true meaning of sarcasm.
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Day five–Social or independent

Independent: free from external control and constraint

Don’t get me wrong, I love being around people. I love to hang out with good friends and have a good time. But I consider myself more independent. I don’t enjoy being told what, how or when to do something. It just frustrates me. I’m all about doing my thing, my way. I’m pretty much a selfish brat,  honestly. On top of that, I like to do solitary things like read, listen to music, mess around on the computer. I just don’t find many people dependable. They aren’t able to cater to my wants and needs as well as I know I can. I always entertain myself. Just think, when you’re out with other people sometimes it’s just not polite to get up and leave even though you can’t imagine sitting there listening to them talk for 3 more hours!! I’m an independent woman, in many senses of the word, who’s doing her own thing.

When I say I simply don’t have time to do what I don’t want to, I mean it. Life is much much MUCH too short to follow the crowd.

Social: tending to move or live together in groups or colonies of the same kind

At the same time, I don’t want people thinking I hate being social. I don’t! I love being with my friends. I love being surrounded by people. The people I surround myself with however, are the type of people who just know how I am. They understand that I am not always going to do every single thing with them. I think of my roommates. They know they are welcome anytime in my room. When we hang out, I’ll probably be doing whatever I need to get done, like folding laundry, while they play Wii. So, I love people. They are fascinating and fun but I don’t fit neatly into a social circle so I consider myself more independent. I’m not locked away in my room. I promise.

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Another dream of mine…

Meet Cooper

I heard a 10-second radio spot about fostering shelter pets. Abandoned or abused pets are placed in a home to rehabilitate them into a suitable house pet. The animals get the love and attention they need  while a permanent home is found–the same idea as foster homes for children. I’ve decided it is my dream to one day provide a sanctuary for shelter pets. I can absolutely imagine myself as a foster mama.

I would LOVE offer myself and home to an animal in need. Love. Love. Love. It’s sort of a selfish thing to do because I get so much pleasure out of being around animals. I used to want to be an animal cop taking down the heartless scum who abuse and neglect helpless animals. But no. I’d rather try to pass on the love and light to animals who may have never had the opportunity to feel genuine care before.

I hope one day, I have the time, means and support of my family to care for animals that need me.

Meet Lillian

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